My sisters and I picked a date for our trip, and now I have something to look forward to. Lately, I've been kind of tired and downcast, especially since my phone is dying. My therapist tells me I smoke too much weed and maybe she's right. I smoke so I can cook and clean. I smoke so I can tolerate the drivel my daughter insists on watching. I smoke and smoke because I like the way it burns in my throat and lungs.
This is my 100th post. I've had this blog for six years. That's slightly over half a decade. I thought this blog would be more popular, that I'd have written more. I expected too much of myself.
So my life might not be what I expected. What did I expect? What did I want? I never got to go to college. I never became famous. Instead, I'm a disabled, stoned housefrau, smoking dank weed out of a Hello Kitty pipe and scrubbing meat grease out of cast iron. I can make a wicked good roast beef, and strong coffee. I've lived here since February, and I still don't have a dresser, or a decent coffee table. I want a good blender. I want to be a better mother and girlfriend.
No one pays attention to me here, and no one pays attention to me on tumblr anymore, either. A couple of people reblog my shitposts, but no on notices any of my original content anymore.
Everything is going wrong today and I feel kind of down. I feel like a bad parent. It's hot, and I have to clean for inspection, and that's just one more thing I need, another man telling me how to keep my damn house.
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Awesome shit!
In my last blog entry, I discussed my travel goals for the summer. The very first place I mentioned was The Great Escape (honestly, for all I talk about them, they should be paying me). I said I had a 70% chance of going there.
Now it's 100%.
So how did it happen? How did I get what I want?
After I finished writing, I realized that if I wanted any of these things to happen, I had to MAKE them happen. I couldn't just rely on luck and chance. I had to make my luck. I had to take the chance. Sounds cheesy, doesn't it?
So I called my sister. I wanted to talk to her about this idea. Or at least talk about the idea of discussing this idea in the future. She didn't pick up. OK, no big deal. I went back to blogging.
The next day she called me, and asked what I wanted. It took me a minute to remember, but then I broached the subject. She was picking a weekend in July. We discussed ticket prices. She told me she can get a discount. All that was left was finding a ride. Her car can only fit five people, the exact number of herself, her partners, and kids. Sadie and I would need to find another vehicle.
Then Laura had a brilliant idea. She would pay for the admission of whichever of my friends was willing to drive Sadie and I up to Lake George. I posted the offer on Facebook, and my sister Cele took us up on it. I talked to Cele last night, and once Laura tells us when, it'll happen.
Sadie and I are excited. She went to The Great Escape when she was two, but I imagine she can't remember too much. She wants to go on rides with her cousin, and her Mama Cat (yours truly), and I want to go on thrill rides with my sisters, and make happy memories with her.
It's going to take some more planning to pull this off. It's going to take coffee, and maybe some xanax. Yeah, going to GE on a weekend is going to require me to take extra care of my anxiety. It'll be better than it has been, because honestly, Sadie will keep me grounded. And I can't get my expectations too high. If I do that, I am bound to be disappointed. Sadie being happy is going to be the most important thing.
Also I hope no one pukes on me.
Now it's 100%.
So how did it happen? How did I get what I want?
After I finished writing, I realized that if I wanted any of these things to happen, I had to MAKE them happen. I couldn't just rely on luck and chance. I had to make my luck. I had to take the chance. Sounds cheesy, doesn't it?
So I called my sister. I wanted to talk to her about this idea. Or at least talk about the idea of discussing this idea in the future. She didn't pick up. OK, no big deal. I went back to blogging.
The next day she called me, and asked what I wanted. It took me a minute to remember, but then I broached the subject. She was picking a weekend in July. We discussed ticket prices. She told me she can get a discount. All that was left was finding a ride. Her car can only fit five people, the exact number of herself, her partners, and kids. Sadie and I would need to find another vehicle.
Then Laura had a brilliant idea. She would pay for the admission of whichever of my friends was willing to drive Sadie and I up to Lake George. I posted the offer on Facebook, and my sister Cele took us up on it. I talked to Cele last night, and once Laura tells us when, it'll happen.
Sadie and I are excited. She went to The Great Escape when she was two, but I imagine she can't remember too much. She wants to go on rides with her cousin, and her Mama Cat (yours truly), and I want to go on thrill rides with my sisters, and make happy memories with her.
It's going to take some more planning to pull this off. It's going to take coffee, and maybe some xanax. Yeah, going to GE on a weekend is going to require me to take extra care of my anxiety. It'll be better than it has been, because honestly, Sadie will keep me grounded. And I can't get my expectations too high. If I do that, I am bound to be disappointed. Sadie being happy is going to be the most important thing.
Also I hope no one pukes on me.
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Places I Wanna Be This Summer
Summer is one of the best times to go on a road trip. Read my blog, and over half the content is about various summer road trips I've taken.
There's lots of places to go in summer. Amusement parks, powwows and museums. Some people go to concerts, others want to go camping. When the weather warms up, and the sun comes out, fun shit starts to happen.
So here's the list of fun shit I want to do, why I want to do it, and how likely it is to happen:
1. The Great Escape and Splashwater Kingdom, Lake George, NY
Readers of my blog know how much I love this park. I've been going since I was 10, and have made a lot of memories at this place. Some good, and some bad.
This year, I want to make new memories, by going on a trip with my daughter, sister and her kids. My sister and I can ride some roller coasters, and I can take Sadie on the carousel and buy her cotton candy. It's been five years since I went and they have some rides I haven't tried.
How likely is it that I go? I have about a 70% chance. Money isn't much of a problem this summer, Arthur has a good job, and is willing to spoil me and Sadie a little. And I can always find good deals on tickets. Getting there is another bag of chips. Arthur and I don't have a car, and I can't drive anyway. There's always the possibility of convincing a parent to take us to NY, or having my sister and her men come get us. This is something that could be pulled off with careful and solid planning.
2. Water Country-
I'm not sure where it is, but I know it's in New Hampshire. Water Country is a water park, and despite everyone knowing the song from their ads, no one seems to have actually been there. But I've always wanted to go. Riding water slides and floating down lazy rivers is worth the yeast infection you'll catch from walking around in a wet bathing suit all day.
How likely is it that I go? Not very. No one knows where it is, and it's hard finding people willing to go. Oh you get people who SAY they wanna go, but you never get past the planning stage. Thankfully the temptation won't be too strong this year. Without cable, I don't have to hear that catchy jingle.
3. The Shelburne Museum, Shelburne, VT-
I've been coming to this large, multi-building museum for as long as I can remember. The Shelburne showcases folk art and New England history. Stroll along the grounds, there's various buildings from the past 350 years. There's even a steam-powered paddle boat that once graced Lake Champlain. One of the best places in VT, the Shelburne is worth the money and the trip. This summer or fall I would love to go with my family, either a large group, or just me, the boyfriend and kid. Sadie will like the carousel, and I'll get to share a special place with people I love.
How likely am I to get there? About 90% likely. Arthur is willing to get a weekend off for this, and we've discussed where we'd stay and how we'd get there. Just gotta pick a day, and find a way.
4. The Beach-
I don't care which beach I go to, as long as it has good waves. Hampton is a nice one to go to, and there's one in Lynn that I had a nice time at. The beach is intoxicating. Hot sun, scorching sand and cool water. You can ride the waves for hours.
My sister Cele and I do have intentions of taking my daughter to the beach. It will be her first time visiting the ocean.
How likely is this going to happen? Again, about 90%. Arthur wants to go see Slayer, and while he's doing that, Sadie and I get to have a Girl's Day with my sister. A trip to the beach is one of the many things we thought of doing on this day. We have the money. All we need is the ride down.
5. Canobie Lake Park, Salem NH-
I went to this amusement park for the first time in 2012, with my sister, Cele. It's a great place, inexpensive, free parking and a good variety of rides, restaurants and activities. I had a great time there, and in the three years since I've gone, they've gotten some rides I'm dying to try.
It's not too likely that I go. About a 30% chance, depending mostly on luck. I gotta find someone willing to go, and a way there.
6. Story Land, Glen NH-
I've never been here, but it seems like a fun place to take Sadie while she's still little. We have a very low chance of going. I've only mentioned it twice, with little reaction.
7. The Montshire Museum of Science, Norwich VT-
We went last year, and had a blast. Admission is cheap, and if we can find a ride, we have an excellent chance of going again this year.
There's lots of places to go in summer. Amusement parks, powwows and museums. Some people go to concerts, others want to go camping. When the weather warms up, and the sun comes out, fun shit starts to happen.
So here's the list of fun shit I want to do, why I want to do it, and how likely it is to happen:
1. The Great Escape and Splashwater Kingdom, Lake George, NY
Readers of my blog know how much I love this park. I've been going since I was 10, and have made a lot of memories at this place. Some good, and some bad.
This year, I want to make new memories, by going on a trip with my daughter, sister and her kids. My sister and I can ride some roller coasters, and I can take Sadie on the carousel and buy her cotton candy. It's been five years since I went and they have some rides I haven't tried.
How likely is it that I go? I have about a 70% chance. Money isn't much of a problem this summer, Arthur has a good job, and is willing to spoil me and Sadie a little. And I can always find good deals on tickets. Getting there is another bag of chips. Arthur and I don't have a car, and I can't drive anyway. There's always the possibility of convincing a parent to take us to NY, or having my sister and her men come get us. This is something that could be pulled off with careful and solid planning.
2. Water Country-
I'm not sure where it is, but I know it's in New Hampshire. Water Country is a water park, and despite everyone knowing the song from their ads, no one seems to have actually been there. But I've always wanted to go. Riding water slides and floating down lazy rivers is worth the yeast infection you'll catch from walking around in a wet bathing suit all day.
How likely is it that I go? Not very. No one knows where it is, and it's hard finding people willing to go. Oh you get people who SAY they wanna go, but you never get past the planning stage. Thankfully the temptation won't be too strong this year. Without cable, I don't have to hear that catchy jingle.
3. The Shelburne Museum, Shelburne, VT-
I've been coming to this large, multi-building museum for as long as I can remember. The Shelburne showcases folk art and New England history. Stroll along the grounds, there's various buildings from the past 350 years. There's even a steam-powered paddle boat that once graced Lake Champlain. One of the best places in VT, the Shelburne is worth the money and the trip. This summer or fall I would love to go with my family, either a large group, or just me, the boyfriend and kid. Sadie will like the carousel, and I'll get to share a special place with people I love.
How likely am I to get there? About 90% likely. Arthur is willing to get a weekend off for this, and we've discussed where we'd stay and how we'd get there. Just gotta pick a day, and find a way.
4. The Beach-
I don't care which beach I go to, as long as it has good waves. Hampton is a nice one to go to, and there's one in Lynn that I had a nice time at. The beach is intoxicating. Hot sun, scorching sand and cool water. You can ride the waves for hours.
My sister Cele and I do have intentions of taking my daughter to the beach. It will be her first time visiting the ocean.
How likely is this going to happen? Again, about 90%. Arthur wants to go see Slayer, and while he's doing that, Sadie and I get to have a Girl's Day with my sister. A trip to the beach is one of the many things we thought of doing on this day. We have the money. All we need is the ride down.
5. Canobie Lake Park, Salem NH-
I went to this amusement park for the first time in 2012, with my sister, Cele. It's a great place, inexpensive, free parking and a good variety of rides, restaurants and activities. I had a great time there, and in the three years since I've gone, they've gotten some rides I'm dying to try.
It's not too likely that I go. About a 30% chance, depending mostly on luck. I gotta find someone willing to go, and a way there.
6. Story Land, Glen NH-
I've never been here, but it seems like a fun place to take Sadie while she's still little. We have a very low chance of going. I've only mentioned it twice, with little reaction.
7. The Montshire Museum of Science, Norwich VT-
We went last year, and had a blast. Admission is cheap, and if we can find a ride, we have an excellent chance of going again this year.
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